I'm... fucked.

I do not know what I've done wrong, besides drool and think like a chubby little criminally insane baby, but my neighborhood has filed a report against the children of my household, aka me and my sister. They say we are dangerous little mammals causing problems in the area [egging houses, setting things on fire, soaring the air unsupervised, etc.], and surprisingly enough, the whole place has turned against me. I personally believe it is my sister's fault, not because I dislike her, but because she's out of control and does that shit all the time. I admit I've never been so scared and worried shitless in my life since the time I've attempted to break inside my household after locking myself out, resulting in me clinging on for deary life. Shit, my chest hurts...

No actually, I've never been so scared in my life. I have a good idea of how this law system works, and based on all the seemingly ignored facts and truths about situation such as, that I'm... fucked.

If there was anything I could do to top this from getting worse, I'd take a hit. A hard, painful, wack in da nutz. Piss on me, beat me, take our money, but for Christ sakes, don't taint my record.

All I can do now, is wait. It's midnight, and there's no one to call or talk to about this. Just be thankful you don't have to suffer massive painful chronic expectation traumas such as I, nor have the inability to retain core functions from when you were free, and only cease your existence based on free thought.

From now on...

Well, I'm not sure how long this will work out if so, but I'll give i a try. I created a youtube account and will be uploading videos to youtube weekly, or as much as i can. No promises, tho. And, despite my last blog, so much has happened... oh so much...

Anyhow, here's the link to my channel:

http://youtube.com/user/cirqueduprick

Yes, Cirque Du Prick. I like that name.

I will occasionally update here every now and then. Until then,

Tootles.

Slowly Famous...

Two really awesome things are brewing up, as well as some future plans when i get this crap out of the way. I'm starting to like myself now; I just hope I dont somehow screw up. I don't feel like wasting time correcting or writing in readable text, because im lazy and ive been meaning to post this on for days.

1. MUSIC - - - i dj-ed at the weekly tuesday fair in downtown Huntington one day; my main income was off of tips [i earned 8 bucks]. this dude saw me, and i suppose he was a powerful business man because he offered me a position in the orange county swapmeat to be a dj there weekly, anytime id like, for a hundred bucks every day. im making more money than my dad right now [dont get me wrong]. Ima spend it on kitty litter. This one dj group, the mix armada [http://mixarmada. com], saw me and asked if i could be a part of their group. i asked if maybe i can send them a sample of what i play, but they havent responded yet. they'll regret that.

2. FILM / ARTS - - - my moms friend is a school cop, and he's really cool and is friends with a lot of different famous peoples, like the jellybelly man and the creator of mulan and pochihauntis [he drew and signed an illustration for me when i was very little], and so ill see about contacting him and submitting work to disney, nick, or cartoon network, and ill possibly create a short show or a few graphic novels. This is gonna be sweet.

all for now, check back in later and maybe ill have some more offers by the time i start performing in orange county or when the dude contacts me. ill be posting.

My aching spleeeen...

Ive been very busy within the last days and as you can [hopefully] tell, I don't update this blog too much. I'm going to try to make this short because my fingers hurt: I am making a comic book and was 6 pages into the book with really no story development, and I have thus far am what remaking it. 

Also, I don't know if you know about this or live anywhere near downtown Huntington beach, but they have a little fair thing every Tuesday where people go to buy foods and nutrients as well as hear volunteer bands play while you donate occasional tips to them if you enjoy the sounds they makes. I happen to contact the lead dude whom organizes everything and asked if I could ever have a dj set there. He said he's never come across that before, and he'll see if I can play there. Well, I lost contact with him for about a week, and then on the following Tuesday I came across him again, and I got ahold of his email address. Now, he arranged it for me to play there.... next Tuesday. It's good, and terrible, because my old computer broke down or got screwed up for some reason, and all my music is in my other comp. I need it to play something. If I play trip hop music, it will take a while to come up with a good set. If I play dance music, it will be a lot easier, but my other comp has the music there also and I don't think too many people will stay. I've been trying to finish this darn blog thingy since yesterday, and looking back I;m not talking about anything [I'm just blabbering], so I'll tell you how the thingy went and how many dollars and pennies I made. Bye.

Current Mood: Coughing Blood

Listening To: mah ache'in spleeeeen.

Merry Valentines Hours

At last, the only comfortable way to buy your wife a 50,000 car and not feel embarrassed or ill at ease, while she repays with a pen, and an ugly tie. Now go hang yourself cause you got a pen; that seems to be the only use for those dreaded things... 

You may be asking yourself, "Why must it be a certain day to say "I love you," when we have the right to say it any time at any place, besides any religious private school where they don't believe in love? Why can't we just rebel and make every day valentines day so we can feel love ALL year? Is it a good idea? Will it be good to buy expensive unnecessary items for a temporary "loved" one? Why does me head hurt? It is screaming... can you hear the screaming? Oh my gawd... I am scared. AAAAAURGH, It's happening again!!!" Well, the answer is quite simple.

But I won't get into that.

I just wanna wish you a happy Valentines day and hopefully you have been satisfied with your... "present". Chao.

Current mood: Edgy

Listening to: Sonic Bowel Movement.

More updates.....

  School has been such a drag recently... It's been getting in the way of so many things. I've been stressed out over my grades and have been really wanting to care about them, but I just... can't. I feel there's something wrong with me... both me and my mom think I have or had or will have a case of Autism. For those whom doo not know what Autism is, it's a mental condition mainly present during early childhood, characterized by great difficulty in communicating and forming relationships with other people and in using language and abstract concepts. Of coarse it's easy for people to get lazy when it comes to unnecessary duties they must accomplish to determine where you'll be within 30 years, but lately it's been getting fucking ridiculous... and I've been talking to myself much too much lately. It's really weird. 

  I also have a growing distaste for mankind and can't separate the fact that animals are different from humans, though I know it's not true. If I don't keep sane in this uncontrollable society we call a home these days, then I fear this monster will step forth and satisfy itself with blood of the humans, despite all the out of control urges this dreaded machine of mine... desires and whatnot.... or something. I dunno. It's 6 am on a Tuesday, so I'd better get ready to suffer in hell. Who needs hell when pain like this exists on earth?

Current mood: absolutely terrible.

Listening to: the early morning traffic.

PS: I got the worst haircut. The Asian lady didn't do a good job and the manager was cussing at her in japanese. I have no hair in the sides or in the back, just peach fuzz, and on the top is an uneven mop. God its so terrible... and I swear to gawd it's not funny.

PSS: I have a new my space. Sort of a back up, not really. Here's the link:

http://myspace.com/baconpiggy

Ouchies

Today in class, at around 4th period, it hit me... my dream and imaginary world collided with reality, causing a mental breakdown that caused me to be stupid for some minutes.... not hours. It was actually pretty freaky, because no matter how hard I tried, I couldn't think, nor concentrate... I kept dozing off into different thoughts, then my head fell, then I woke up, then again, then again, then again.... it just kept on going, like mutated rubber pants.....

And for some reason, I'm no sleepy anymore. My face looks like a mess topped off with some bloodshot eyes. I suddenly realize what importance a two hour nap means to me...

Current mood: The craps.

Listening to: The constant drifting of my thoughts born in various dimensions...

Hot Damn

As you can tell, I haven't updated my blog in quite a bit, and lately I've been trying addicting things I should've never tried at all [video games, television, etc.], so now I'm completely brain-dead and bored enough to actually write in this little thing with this little keyboard...

I've literally stayed up since yesterday doing absolutely nothing but playing video games and watching Invader Zim on itunes. Not to mention, its a MONDAY on the FIRST DAY of the QUARTER, so I guess you can say I'm all prepared to learn and have fun and learn.....<:[. This is one of those times where I'm literally awake ALL NIGHT and don't even take a normal hour nap like usual, to keep myself from having baggy eyes...

My eyes hurt. I can't find my eye drops.

I'm not too sure on what else I should talk about, but it seems you know too much information already, so I'll stop by and kill you anytime. Chao.

:P

Listening To: My heart skipping beats.

Current mood: Very bleak.

I broke up...

I broke up with my long term girlfriend, Kimmy... I feel bad for her. We only broke up because we live too far away and a lot of things going on, despite ordering pizza to my old principle, using his full name, pone number, and address... It's a long story. His son happened to work at the pizza hut i called to order pizza with, and he said his dad was a cop and everything, which his dad wasn't, his dad was really a principle, and so yea, nothing much went on there...

But yes. I'm single again. There's some good and some bad in that, but at least, well, you know, i get to start interacting again, although I've already banned myself from making friends with anyone in this wretched school...

Current Mood: Vomiting.

Listening To: Projectile Vomiting.

The Best Cigarette

If you really think about it... there's nothing wrong with smoking, asides from the fact that it deducts a few seconds from life... seriously, it does. At my old private christian nazi school, thy said it deducts months from life. Liars... besides, i found this one website: http://waitless.org/ , that tells you tips on how to do things faster and surprisingly, this cooling soda trick saves a month of your life, way beyond the boundaries of what smoking can do to you. I know people that've smoked since like 12, but nothing happened. 

Smoking isn't a disgusting habit, its simply smelling something that smells really good. It makes people all smiley and enjoy their time. Feeling guilty while smoking is that last thing people should feel, cause not only are you becoming depressed, but you're forcing yourself to stand years in dread over something you like to do. It just proves you are not good enough to handle or take control of enjoying yourself.

Well, I thought I should just say that, cause lately I've been second hand smoking a lot and I luv it. Heh. I may be a happy smoker when I get older. ;]

That's all for now, so buh bah.